Mind Over Matter
This blog about Mind over Matter. The attitude of perseverance and overcoming obstacles. Welcome to our new guest blogger and friend of Chronically Awesome; Cheryl.
For over 17 years, I have been a stage 4 cancer patient. After that diagnosis came a whole slew of other conditions including, diabetes and hypertension just to name a few. I have undergone more surgeries than I care to count.
I am currently in need of surgery on my right foot, so I bet you never thought a 5k would be in my future. I know I never did! For as long as I can remember, exercise was never a focus in my life. While losing weight and exercise was always on my mind, but I never had the motivation to get started, or, like many, stick with it.
A few months ago, I had a possible “mini stroke”. I will never know for certain because the night the symptoms happened I didn’t go to the hospital. My cardiologist told me I needed to get my blood pressure down. I was terrified. I kept thinking “here I am beating cancer only to put my life at risk with something I had some control.”
That is when I thought “what the heck, I have to start somewhere!” So, I purchased some walking shoes, leggings, big t-shirts, and headed to the local rec center. I looked around and saw people stretching; it seemed like the right thing to do, so I emulated the stretching of the fittest looking people around me. “Fake it until you make it,” right?
With music in my ears, I began my walk around the track! I lasted all of two laps, huffing, and puffing, feeling like I was going to die. My legs were killing me, my feet were killing me, and I thought my lungs were exploding. So, I left.
The next morning, I got up and felt like a truck had run me over. I was sore everywhere, but I couldn’t give up yet. I remembered the words “mind over matter” and I headed back to the rec center. I did the same as the day before. I had a goal; maybe today I could do three laps.
That was when I read the sign on the wall; it takes nine laps to go a whole mile. Are you kidding me? My daughter does 5Ks and half marathons, and I am here struggling to make it two laps around the track. Despite this, for the very first time, I thought it may be possible to work up to a 5K. I didn’t make it nine laps that day, but I did make it three laps!
Pretty soon, three laps turned into four, then five, then six, and one day it was nine! I had made it to a mile!
I kept at it. I felt empowered. I was achieving something unbelievable! A few weeks later, I heard about the “Officers Down 5K” in Cleveland, Ohio. My son is a police officer, so I thought, “how neat would that be to do the 5K with him?” In spite of my body’s protests, I kept walking. I walked further and further every day and finally registered for the 5K. I was doing this! I had to do this.
I was going to walk 3.1 miles.
I found a friend that had never done a 5K and enlisted her help to walk with me on the big day. Jogging was out of the question as I had a tumor on my spine, but power walking was doable.
The day of the race, I was so nervous; “What did I get myself into?” I thought. Runners were everywhere, stretching, looking so physically fit. I glanced down at the Fitbit on my wrist and checked my heart rate. It was already 106, and I hadn’t even started yet. I looked at my friend, and we said we can do this. Before I knew it everyone was moving forward, most were running, some were walking. Off I went, feeling excited about the possibility that I was going to complete an actual 5K. Feeling good, no real aches or pains, I was enjoying myself.
Somewhere around a mile and a half, “What did I get myself into” turned into., “Am I crazy?” I was huffing and puffing. It almost felt like that very first day at the recreation center. Somehow I continued, even after my right heel began to hurt terribly. I knew — somehow, someway, anyway — I was going to accomplish this feat. I remember my daughter saying, “mind over matter, mom,” so I continued despite the pain radiating through my heel. I contemplated taking off my shoe and walking in my sock to relieve the pain. I knew a blister had formed on my heel and broken. My heel was a disaster, but I wouldn’t stop. I was so close to finishing. I knew I would feel so accomplished. I felt that, regardless of the obstacles, I was going to do this.
And, I did it!
The feeling I had when I crossed the finish line and saw my time (55.35 minutes) was sheer delight. I had made it in under an hour; that was my goal. Heck, who am kidding? Making it at all was my goal. To my amazement, I had completed the entire 5K.
That is when I realized, even though we have hardships, things that can hold us back, if we press on we can accomplish many things in our life — no matter how short our lives could be. No one knows when our time will come. What I know is that for 55 minutes and 35 seconds, I felt free, and nothing else mattered.
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